For the one I always remember

Dear Beloved,

There never was a day I didn't think of you. Of what I could have done to not destroy this, to not push you away from me. Everyday I ponder on those things we have shared. Those little things, that made up a special bond between us. Even though in the end, its easier to think that I was never the person you love. That what I thought was love, is actually some sympathy you've shown in respect to what I've tried to convince myself.

A few days back, a friend posted a picture with a song. A song that made think of you. Of what I should wish you instead of breaking your heart with hurt and pain. What I should do was to walk away before it came to that. To that moment you left me without goodbye. What I should do before I blame people that made you left me. At times I wanted to cry. I miss you so much. I have vowed to not fall in love again. I want to avoid it from happening again. Because I can't see myself loving anyone else as much as I love you, and I can't bear to hurt anyone else as much as I've hurt you and I don't think I can accept rejection again, as much as you have rejected the love I wanted to give to you.

But as for today, all I wanted to do is this. Today, I wish you love.

"I Wish You Love" by Rachel Yamagata

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
And more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love